Sunday, March 18, 2012

Quick update

Hi all. Just a quick update as it's been a while since I posted. I have had the worst week of my life - I tell no lie. I thought things couldn't get any worse but they did. I have been emptied of everything inside me and have become numb to any sense, any feeling, any emotion. I would like to think things are on the mend but I have been destroyed by hurt and pain and trust is not an easy thing to replace. Once it has gone, it takes a loooong time to build again and I don't even know right now if it can be. I still have my faith and hope so I AM okay. Obviously, any form of crafting has taken a back seat but I think, tonight, I might be able to do a little. I am taking things one day at a time. Thanks for all your positive thoughts, prayers and emails. I appreciate every one. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

64 comments:

Kate said...

Know that we all hope for the best for you. May your luck turn to the good side. {{{{hugs}}}} and you will remain in my prayers.

staci said...

{{HUGS}} I'm so sorry for all the pain you're going through right now. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers and hopefully things will get better soon.

staci said...

I'm so sorry for all the pain you're going through right now Hazel. Sending you many hugs and prayers that things will soon get better.

Sweet Sue said...

Hoping you find comfort with your needle tonight Hazel, might even do you more good than you think. We'll be with you in spirit:) xoxo

Michelle said...

Thoughts are with you - I hope you make it through this difficult time and have some brighter days ahead. xx

Carol said...

Sending love and prayers for things to get better for you.
Carol xx

Vickie said...

Hazel I am praying for you. Keep praying for yourself and family okay? ♥ http://astitchersstory.blogspot.com/

milly said...

Hello

I'm sorry to hear of the pain you are feeling now.

You will be in my thoughts.

Hope things turn around for you soon.

(((hugs))

Ruby Mole said...

Hazel, I really feel for you. Things will get better as time goes on but unfortunately that road will be quite bumpy with some nasty surprises.

You will come out of it a better, stronger person. Just hang on in there. We're here for you and anytime you need to vent, just do it. It does wonders for the spirit.

You have your faith which will be a comfort for you and crafting can be wonderful therapy.

Sending you good vibes to help you through this difficult phase.

Ruby x
(moleymakes)

Julie said...

Hazel, you are in my prayers tonight, I wish you love and am sending you hugs, big hugs. Take good care of yourself.

By Hoki Quilts said...

Oh Hazel, that is so sad - when we are down and have been knocked down I have found that going into auto drive helps - stitching can be done on auto drive - take solice in it and I hope things improve for you really soon.
hugs - Miche'le

Giovanna said...

I'm so sorry, Hazel. I hope that things will start going the right way for you. Hugs, and take care.

Cath said...

Oh , Hazel , I'm so sorry you're going through all this .
Sending you some hugs .
Take care .XXX

Nic said...

Hoping that things get better for you. Hope you can get some stitching done and it helps heal xxx

Melanie said...

I'm so sorry that your going through a very difficult time. I'll keep you in my prayers and hope that things get better for you soon. x

Annette-California said...

Hazel I am praying for YOU! ((HUGS)) and all loving thoughts I send your way. Stitching is a source of escape and accomplishment. Just do what you can. Little by little. Things have to improve for you here on out. And they will.

andamento said...

Sorry to hear all is not going well. Thinking of you.
Anne.

Lesleyanne said...

Sorry to hear you are having a hard time. Sending hugs.

Jackie said...

Oh Hazel, I'm so sorry and wish I could make it all better. Sending you many hugs.

Shebafudge said...

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time of it at the moment. I will keep you in my prayers. Hopefully things will look up soon!

(((((HUGS)))))

anneke said...

I'm so sorry to read about your troubles. Thinking of you!

Margaret said...

Hazel, I'm so sorry to hear this. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs.

Sharon said...

Thinking of you Hazel and praying things get better!

Melissa said...

Hazel, I am sorry you are in a world of hurt right now. I will keep you in my prayers.

Take care.

Catherine said...

So sorry to read this Hazel. I will keep you in you in my thoughts and prayers!

Nancy said...

Sending {{{HUGS}}} and prayers your way. Hope things get better soon.

Jeanne said...

Big hugs to you Hazel. We cannot repair the pain in your life but do know that there are people who care about you and wish you the very best. I have been to the bottom of the well myself in life and in time things will get better, one way or another. Right now just try to get through each day.

Hillery said...

You need to do what is right for YOU!! God Bless.

Cole said...

Hazel, so sorry for all the troubles you're going through. Sending hugs & prayers your way.

valerie said...

Oh Hazel, I send you huge comforting hugs during this hard time. I am so sorry things took a turn for the worse. I have big hopes and prayers for you.

Sarah Beth said...

Hazel...I'm praying for you. I'm so sorry for the storm you are going through. I think of psalm 139 and hope you'll take a look at it. It always reminds me of how much my heavenly father loves me and that i am his. He knew before he made you your peaks and valleys. Just hang in there. I also find comfort in that he always brings good through all things for those that love him and are called according to his purpose. I can't remember which Scripture that is but I know it is in the NT. Grab on to your faith tie a knot with it and hang on. Jesus loves you. You are special...you are royalty...a daughter of the King. It might not feel like it but often our feeling skew things. Though everyone in this world may let you down at some point you can always trust your God. He won't leave you or forsake you. God bless you. I am praying for you.

Veronica said...

{{{{{Hugs}}}}} Hope things turn out better for you soon. Do take care. Will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Veronica.

Ann at Beadlework. said...

"Look towards the sun Hazel, and the shadows will fall behind you".

Chris said...

Thinking of you Hazel :)

Christine said...

Hugs Hazel, hope things improve soon

Kelly said...

Praying for you Hazel! ♥

stitcheranon said...

Thank you for letting us know how you are. I wish I could help..know that you are not alone and we are all here for you: sending you lots of hugs and hoping you will find something to smile over soon xxx

Louise said...

Hazel,
I just ventured over to your blog this morning and I am so upset to read your post. I am so sorry for your pain. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Please know that others hold you close in heart and prayers.
I pray something good happens for you soon,
Louise xx

Carol said...

I'm so very sad to hear you're having such troubles, Hazel... Sending you a warm hug and hopes that things will turn around very soon for you...

SusanD1408 Crochet Addict said...

So sorry you are going through such a bad time. Our thoughts are with you and I hope things get better!

Ann said...

Hi Hazel,
I hope things aren't toooo serious for you and that the sun will soon shine again!
I also hope that your stitching will bring a little bit of comfort, whatever you're experiencing for the moment!
Kind greetings and a big hug!
Ann

Cuckoo said...

Oh Hazel. i really can't find any words of wisdom for you. But at least you know there are a heap of people out here rooting for you.

xxx

barbara said...

How sad that you have to go down this path, Hazel. We are all thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts. Please take care of yourself.

StasaLynn said...

You are not alone - we all are sending you the support and love you need now!

Stacey

Julie said...

Much love to you and the family Hazel. I hope things improve for you, one day at a time they say.. Xx

Kathy said...

Awwww hun {{{hugs}}} you know where I am if you need to talk, take care my friend and hope things will get better soon.

Thinking of you and sending you lots of love and hugs xxxxx

Elisa said...

Oh Hazel, I suppose there is not a lot I can say that others haven't already, but be assured you will be in my thoughs and prayers and I will light a special candle for you at Mass this Sunday xx

Sally said...

Hazel I am so sorry for your pain. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers and hoping things improve for you. Lots of hugs xx

Anne said...

Sorry to hear that you are in pain. Big hugs to you and prayers as well.

Barb said...

AWW Hazel ,God Bless and keep positive thinking sweetie. Thoughts and prayers are with you.

Fleur Cotton said...

Sorry to hear things aren't so good....yes spend some time stitching,I always find my crafting almost meditative and gives me space to think.

Fleur xx

wranglerkate said...

Hazel - I am thinking of you and praying for you!! TALK to your trusted friends and family members - sharing your burdens with someone who cares about YOU will go a long way to healing. And you will be able to see better times ahead.

Siobhán said...

(((((((((((((Hazel))))))))))))))

Cheryl said...

Look at all these comments, you are much loved! I am praying. I anxiously check for your blog updates hoping you are ok.
Take Care my friend x

Brigitte said...

You don't know how much I hope for you that things become better. ((((Hugs))))

Karoline said...

I shall continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers {{{Hugs}}}

Kathy A. said...

Oh Heather. I wish I could reach across the ocean and hug you myself as tight as I can.
Please know I am thinking of you and hope that there is some healing for you soon.

susan said...

I have just found you.....My heart goes out to you if it is what I think it is, same thing for me in 2006. Realised in 2008 that it had probably been going on in the background (with diff people) since the beginning. I chose not to do the obvious thing in these situations as I had a young post-operative child (major heart surgery) to care for, the cruelty of certain people knows no bounds. It is our 30th anniv this year but means nothing. I am going through the motions because a) one emotionally ill son, b) one daughter who has just come through a very very tough teenage time c) no parents to go home to, and d) no job, no money, so have had to put my pain 'in a box' and hunker down and be mum to my kids.
Ironically my daughter (now teenage) is friends with daughter of other person and knows that her dad was friends with the mum.
I hope things go well for you, I truly do. If I am on the wrong 'page' then I deeply apologise.
Love to you and your loved ones..
Sue
PS I have started to blog as dollyclothespeg because I need to let it all out privately.

StasaLynn said...

I have been checking on you everyday..... Hope all is well and you will let us continue to support you.

Take care and you are still in my prayers.

Stacey

kay said...

Sending love and prayers.

Rathnashikamani said...

Hope all's well now.

Aussie Stitcher said...

I hope that in amongst all of the turmoil that you are trying your best to take a little time for yourself. Take care Hazel {HUGS}.

Lily said...

I am so sorry for the hard time you are having. My neighbour had a similar experience 18 months ago and has managed to come out of things happier than ever. I hope you will find contentment and happiness. Lily. xxx

Anonymous said...

Keep checking in for an update.....really hope to hear some good news from you soon.....